DOA–Munajat Ali bin Abi Thalib di Bulan Sya’ban (6)

IslamIndonesia.id – DOA–Munajat Ali bin Abi Thalib di Bulan Sya’ban (6)

Ilâhî wa qad afnaytu ‘umrî fî syirratis sahwi ‘anka, wa ablaytu syabâbî fî sakratit tabâ’udi minka.

Ilâhî falam astayqazhu ayyâma-ghtirârî bika wa rukûnî ilâ sabîli sakhatika.

Ilâhî wa anâ ‘abduka wabnu ‘abdika qâimun bayna yadayka, mutawassilun bikaramika ilayka.

Ilâhî ana ‘abdun atanashshalu ilayka, mimmâ kuntu uwâjihuka bihi min qillat-istihyâî min nazharika, wa athlubul ‘afwa minka idzil ‘afwu na’tun likaramika.

Ilâhî lam yakun lî hawlun fantaqila bihi ‘an ma’shiyatika illâ fî waqtin ayqazhtanî limahabbatika, wa kamâ aradtu an akûna kuntu, fasyakartuka bi-idkhâlî fî karamika, wa litathhîri qalbî min awsâkhil ghaflati ‘anka.

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Tuhanku, telah aku habiskan umurku tenggelam dalam kelalaian dari mengingat-Mu; telah aku hancurkan masa mudaku dalam ketidaksadaran (‘mabuk’) menjauhi-Mu.

Tuhanku, aku tidak sadar pada hari-hari ketertipuanku kepada-Mu; dan kecenderunganku pada jalan kemurkaan-Mu.

Tuhanku, aku hamba-Mu, anak hamba-Mu juga; sekarang berdiri di hadapan-Mu; mencari jalan kemurahan-Mu untuk mendekati-Mu.

Tuhanku, akulah hamba yang ingin menghampiri-Mu; setelah menghadap-Mu dengan (secara) ‘tidak tahu malu’; aku mohonkan ampunan-Mu karena ampunan adalah sifat kemurahan-Mu.

Tuhanku, aku tidak mempunyai kekuatan untuk meninggalkan perbuatan maksiatku kepada-Mu, kecuali saat Engkau sadarkan daku akan kecintaan-Mu; dan seperti Engkau kehendaki aku, begitulah keadaanku; kusampaikan syukur kepada-Mu; karena telah Kau masukkan daku ke dalam kemurahan-Mu; dan karena telah Kau bersihkan hatiku dari noda-noda kelalaian dari mengingat-Mu;

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My Lord, I have wasted my life committing the crime of forgetting You and played havoc with my youth, intoxicated with keeping myself away from You.

My Lord, I did not wake up when I was under a delusion about You and was inclined to earn Your displeasure.

My Lord, I am Your bondman, son of Your bondman. I am standing before You, trying to use Your own magnanimity as a means of approaching You.

My Lord, I am a bondman of Yours, I want to rid myself of the sins I used to commit in Your presence because I lacked the sense of feeling ashamed that You were looking at me. I request You to forgive me, because forgiveness is
a characteristic of Your Kindness.

My Lord, I was not strong enough to move away from Your disobedience, except when You awakened me to Your love. I was exactly as You wanted me to be. I am thankful to You for introducing me to Your Kindness and purging my heart of the impurities of being inattentive to You.

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